Chanel Miller describes uncomfortable run-in with Brock Turner

The victim in the Stanford sexual assault case has described the awkward run-ins she had with Brock Turner at his trial in her new memoir.

Chanel Miller writes in “Know My Name” about seeing Turner while waiting to pick her sister up from court one day, on a day she was scheduled to testify.

While initially she and a friend waited outside the courthouse, they decided to go inside when they saw a reporter and feared that the journalist was taking pictures of them.

Miller recalled:

“It unnerved me, so we stepped inside through security just as the elevator doors parted and Brock appeared, hands in pockets, followed by his whole family and his attorney.

“I expected them to stop, retreat, an invisible boundary they were not allowed to cross. But they glanced at me and kept coming, and I did not have time to move, simply stood with my back turned as they passed me like I was nobody. When I looked at myself through their eyes, I shrunk one hundred times smaller, nothing more than a vacant-headed victim, the rotten stain on his life.”

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It wasn’t the only uncomfortable moment during the trial.

Later, on the day of closing arguments, Miller said she ran into Turner again during a recess.

“He walked past me, guided by his father’s hand on his back. His father glanced down at me, then lifted his eyes back up and kept walking. It was one second, but enough to make my insides seize,” Miller wrote.

Turner was sentenced to six months in jail for sexually assaulting Miller while she was unconscious, outside a Stanford frat party, in January 2015. He only served three months, due to good behavior.

Miller’s memoir was released on Tuesday. She revealed her identity for the first time earlier this month, as she prepared to publish the book.

If you are a survivor of sexual assault, you can call the National Sexual Assault Hotline at 800.656.HOPE (4673) or visit hotline.rainn.org/onlineand receive confidential support.